I don't know if it is just as I am getting older, or if it is related to pregnancy, or the nausea, or what, but I seem to have lost my filter. I used to have one, although it leaked. I would usually catch myself before saying something too hurtful or controversial or that in any way might rock the boat. As I mentioned, it leaked. I have always had a tendency to blurt. But at least it was there sometimes.
Lately...it seems to have disappeared altogether. I found myself just saying or posting whatever comes into my head, regardless of how it will come across to others. My sister was commenting on it the other night, with equal parts amusement, horror and admiration. On one hand, it feels really good to be honest and not have to weigh my words. On the other hand, I truly don't want to be offensive and hurtful to people whom I care deeply about.
Sigh. That whole "speaking the truth in love" thing. I have a lot of growing up left to do.